Listening to: OFF OST - Desperately Safe
I've been here on deviantART for several years now, and I only really recently started posting my drawings up here. Looking through some of my older work, I feel I've come a long way from where I was, both with anatomy and character design. I put a lot of effort into everything I draw or write out. I find it therapeutic in a sense. I don't mind if my art has a small amount of views or people think my comments are long winded. I started drawing for fun and to help me cope with the many trials and tribulations of my life. (Believe me, there have been a lot.) I don't think I'm ever going to completely stop drawing, I just can't bring myself to do so.
In reality, I'm a lonely person. I don't have all these friends that I draw myself to have, and I'm finding that I'm ok with that. Not because I think "Oh, these characters are my only REAL friends", no. But because I just feel content in my solitude at the moment. Sure, it gets scary by myself sometimes or I feel like just giving up or that the world is going to go on with or without me, I have those feelings sometimes. But I just think that I'll find someone or several someones out there to befriend and maybe go on adventures with. Hell, they may become drawings themselves, who knows lol I'm not searching for a relationship right now with anyone because I personally don't feel ready to commit. I've also recently come to feel that although he's a wonderful character, I don't want a man like Keven after all. I think we would make better friends than a couple if he WAS real, but that would be as far as it goes. In short, I feel like I'm mellowing down from my manic self and am coming to grips with my life and what I want it to become someday and just enjoy what I have now. I have a place to live, a job which pays me enough to live there, I get to socialize with a lot of interesting (albeit sometimes INSANE) people at work. I feel content, I guess is the right way of putting it.
Just thought I'd put that out there.